Wah Wah Weaknesses

So is it obvious yet that one of my weaknesses is procrastinating? I'm sure it is, since in my strengths post last week I signed off by saying that I'd post about my weaknesses TOMORROW. Eek. Boo to me for making you guys wait.

Yes, it's true, procrastinating is certainly up there on my list of weaknesses. I've been known to put off 10-page term papers until 8pm the night before they're due (or later if SoapNet is playing one of those sure-to-suck-you-in America's Next Top Model marathons). But usually these papers turn out great, allowing me to use the procastinator's most favoritest motto ever aka "I work better under pressure."

So, aside from being solidly docked at procrastination station, what other weaknesses do I have? Well, unlike Tink, I'm not an asshole. I am, however, a brat. A big one. I like to get my way, I HATE when people change plans on me (even if they have a good reason), and I don't like sharing - of clothes, friends, blankets, the remote, or attention. I definitely need to reign this in, because at this point in my career, I'm a cog...and people don't appreciate bratty cogs. Also, the boy toy hates it when I go ballistic over moving our dinner plans back an hour.

What else? Well, like Tink I also have a problem with authority. However, my problem is that I'm TERRIFIED of authority figures. This served me relatively well as a kid: I never got in trouble at school and my parents thought I was perfect so they never suspected I was sneaking out with handles of vodka to get drunk with Tink. However, as I've gotten older I've realized that this super odd fear of authority figures is holding me back: I was never close with my professors (making it hard for me to get recommendations even though I did well in school) and I currently have no mentors in my profession.

Another weakness I have is that I'm super sensitive. Seriously, my feelings get hurt so easily, its ridiculous. Along the same lines, I'm terrible at accepting criticism and get super defensive when people try to tell me I did something wrong...sometimes I even cry about it. TERRIBLE!

Also, I hate when people get mad at me and am willing to do pretty much anything to make sure they don't. I used to be much worse about this - at one point in college my ex-boyfriend tried to get me to go an entire night without apologizing. I lasted like 30 seconds...and then I apologized for apologizing! As you can probably imagine this weakness served to make me very easy to manipulate - most of the friends I had in high school pretty much walked all over me. I don't blame them though, I was kind of a doormat. While I've certainly gotten better at this, I still do a lot of things just to please other people and I don't stick up for myself nearly enough.

Finally, and this one is pretty much something only the girls will get, but whatever, I am way too harsh on my body. Like most girls I know, I hate my body (or parts of it)...and objectively, my body's pretty damn great. I know that it is, and yet I still can't help myself from bitching about it alot and letting the fact that I "feel fat" ruin a perfectly good day at the beach or the mall. BOO.

Well, there you have it. This was super cathartic.